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My paranoid delusions suck. I still think people are following me and watching me. They're waiting for me to fuck up,so they can tell people I am close too,about it. They read my emails,texts,record my calls,and tell everyone or show them. My friends and family  just don't  tell me about it,they don't want me to know to they know. Yeah,I really believe all of that.When I walk into a place,everyone who looks at me,thinks I don't belong in there. I don't belong out of the house. I'm also depressed, I had a hallucination today,a man screaming outside my door. It was name,I couldn't catch the name though. I promptly went back to bed. I've already had two panic attacks today. Le sigh,guess I'll go clean to keep my brain busy.